Thursday, October 22, 2009

I've come to realise...

♥ I’ve come to realise that my boobs…
are beestings rather than bazookas, and I am just fine with that.

♥ I’ve come to realise that my job…
is slowly starting to wear on me, drag me down, depress me. I hate this feeling. I used to love my job, going into work was fun and exciting and always to be looked forward to. Now I have days where I dread getting up, just want to stay in bed. I have days where I feel like screaming when the phone rings, “Why won’t you people just leave me alone?!” This is clearly not good. I think part of this is because I so desperately want to get OUT there and starting doing IT – law, what I have always wanted to do, litigate, practise, for real, not this waiting-in-the-wings type stuff, too scared to take that first step out on my own, without safety nets.

♥ I’ve come to realise that when I’m driving…
I talk to myself, if there’s noone else in the car. Hopefully passing motorists just think I’m singing along to the radio.

♥ I’ve come to realise that I need…
 coffee. Yes, my drug of choice. I feel terribly embarrassed to admit to a physical addiction to any substance, albeit a legal one, but there you have it. Without my large soy cappuccino in the morning, my brain refuses to function. The saddest part about this is, I don’t want to change this – I enjoy drinking coffee far too much to give it up!

♥ I’ve come to realise that I’ve lost…
my fear of being alone.

♥ I’ve come to realise that I hate it when…
 things in my life are out of my control. I feel the need to always hold the reins, to steer my life the way I want it to go. I need to embrace chaos, and accept that, sometimes, things will happen the way they will.

♥ I’ve come to realise the person I like…
has been waking up next to me in bed for the past six years, and hopefully will do so for the next six (or sixty) years to come.

♥ I’ve come to realise that money…
 is necessary, but it is not everything in life.

♥ I’ve come to realise that people…
 are essentially all the same, under the surface.

♥ I’ve come to realise that I’ll always be…
 a little bit crazy, a little bit different, a bit of a drama queen. And I love that.

♥ I’ve come to realise that my Mum…
 is one of my best friends, the kindest, sweetest, most lovely woman I know. One of those genuine rare souls who would give you the shirt off their back.

♥ I’ve come to realise that my mobile phone…
is my nemesis, because it allows people to contact me AT ANY GIVEN TIME. I treat it like a ticking timebomb – is it going to ring now? Who is it going to be? I would love to throw it away, but cannot quite bring myself to do it. I do always turn it off on weekends though.

♥ I’ve come to realise that when I woke up this morning…  I felt content. I like this feeling.

♥ I’ve come to realise that last night before I went to sleep…
it occurred to me that I need to let go of things, stop worrying so much about the little things that are entirely out of my control.

♥ I’ve come to realise that right now I am thinking about… how cute my kitten looks, sleeping on my lap, snoring a little as he snoozes.


♥ I’ve come to realise that today…
is a beautiful day. I am alive and healthy and happy, the sun is shining, and I am in love.

♥ I’ve come to realise that tonight…
will be spent watching ABC tv, drinking New Zealand white wine, and eating mangos and mulberries.

♥ I’ve come to realise that tomorrow will be…
whatever I make it.

♥ I’ve come to realise that I really want to…
change peoples’ lives for the better, in any way that I can.

♥ I’ve come to realise that life...
is actually pretty damn wonderful, and I ought to refect on that a little more often.

♥ I’ve come to realise that my ex’s... were all old mates whom I feel I could still be friends with, who I laughed with and had fun with, and who helped me grow as a person.

♥ I’ve realised the best music to listen to when I am upset is…
anything classical, the best option usually being Stravinsky’s Rite of Spring.

♥ I’ve come to realise that my true friends…
 are those who love me for me, and wouldn’t change me.

♥ I’ve come to realise that the past year…
 has passed me by in the blink of an eye, and I can barely process all that has happened.

♥ I’ve come to realise that the last person I kissed… was my husband, this morning, when he left for work, accompanied by his whispered, “I love you, see you tonight”.

♥ I’ve come to realise that when people walk out of my life… they never deserved to be there in the first place.

3 comments:

  1. just beautiful kitty kat

    luv u

    wen

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  2. Thankyou my darling Wends, I am constantly amazed and humbled that people actually like reading my blog and posting such sweet comments, it makes me feel very special.
    Love you!
    xoxo

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  3. Hy my name is Ana and I just started reading you blog a week ago.I just want to say that this post was the most beautiful and honest I've read in a while.
    Have a nice day
    Ana xoxo
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