Some days, I feel I am treading water. Being at work, doing it part-time, trying to find that mythical balance.
Everyone says, be 100% at work when you're at work, and 100% with your baby when you're with them. I like the idea but can't seem to put it into practice.
I have had moments at work where my brain has just glitched, and all I can think about is Evelyn, something that was bothering her, something funny she did. Similarly I've had moments when I'm with her, when I'm suddenly in work mode and planning something out on a file. I can't switch it off. Some weeks, I feel I should be working 4 days instead of 2, others I don't want to spend a single day away from my daughter. It is absolutely confusing, but I'm guessing it's also pretty normal.
I am slowly learning to be ok with the reality that my focus has shifted - this little person has come along and taken up a huge place in my life. At this point in time, I'm not thinking of being promoted, or making partner. I'm happy settling back in and taking it slow. I have struggled with this SO much. But I'm learning that it's ok to not be as driven at this point in my life. It's a different season right now.
Do you work part-time? Did you struggle with the adjustment?